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HA OF COURSE THE SONG IM LISTENIG  TO "   Fire in my veins"  PASSENGEROFSHIT OF CORUSEEEE ITS 4:27 

NUMBER 27 I SEE IT PROBABLY 2727272727272772 TIMES A DAY RIGHT.. GAWWWWWWWDDDDDDDDDD... WHATS REAL??? Whatever:D 

So this p[iece is isnpired by my love for dress up and zombie :D enjoy 

DEAR EMILY YOUCIS, IS YOU MY SOULMATE?>?>?>?>and MUSICS and m0re

 not inna gay way, inna HOLY SHUIT WER DESTINED 2 MEET AND CREATE SOMETHING THAT WILL CHANGE EARTH way. THE SIGNSSSSSSSS THE SIGNSSSSS SAY ALLLLLLLLL. 

So i find out about the little alfer on... lemme guesss...... MAY 31ST. I LITERRALLY GOOGLED WHEN IUS THI B9ITCHES ZODIAC SIGN AND IT WAS 12:00 MIGNIGHT ON MAY 3IST WHAT THE FYUCK 

SECOND THING,   CHECK IT, MY SPOTIFY PLATYLIST OVERFLOWING WITH SUICIDALRAPORGY AND P[ASSENGEROFSHIT SINCE UI WAS A TEENY BABY AND THEN I SEE U ANIMATED MCBUSHPIG SONG REALLY....!!!!!!@!~$#@ ITS GETTING INSANE!!!!!!!! 

THEN THE NEXT DAY IM WATCHING THIS RETARDED TERRIBLE MOVIE FUCKED UIP ON COUGHSYRU[P "Arthur and the minimoys" its alreadya TRIPPY WORLD WGHEN SOBER IF U WATCH IT.. ITS FYUCKED up ... ANYWAYS/....... THE DOGS FUCKING NAME IS ALFREDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALFRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AFRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ALFER!!!!!!!!!!!!!ALFRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ALFRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARE YOU FUCKINGH MY PERNIS!!!!!!!!ALFRED>>>>???????????????????????

Listenign 2 "my lil pony.WMV By TOXIC LIPSTICK rn ((oine of the best band besides passengerofshit)))9--- 

HAPPY LIL PONY, TOUCH THA LIL PONY, MOUNT THE LIL PONY, RIDE THE LITTLE PONMY FUCK THE LITTLE PONY RAPE THE LITTLE PONY KISS THE LITTKLE PONY PUT A FINGER IN ITS ANUSSSSSSSSSSSSS EAT THE PONIES FACE OFF TURN THE PONY INTO GLUE!!!!STEAL THE PONIES SHOES!!!!!!!!KILL THE FUCKING PIONY!@@@!@#$@!!!!!!!!!!DIE PONY FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIE PONY FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DIE PONY FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIE PONY FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Sweet little pony,, im sorry little pony, i didnt mean 2 make u sad , i didnt mean 2 kill yur motherr,,,,I DIDNT MEAN 2 EAT UR FACE, I NEVER MEANT TO STAB YOUR DAD, I DIDNT MEAN TO STELA YOUR SHOES,S I NEVER MEANT TO MAKE YOU DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!34752!@#%#$@ Anyways Why is even THIS band has so many sybncronicities to myu life and lyrics i alrighty wrote like im going crazy io feel like eevryone i like i was MEANT to find so that i can reacgh my ful creatuive potential and emily and toxcic lipsdtick and swift IS ALL APART OF YM BIG BRAIN AND I MANIOFESTED THEM INTO EXISTENACE WHEN I REINCARNATED HERE SO THAT I WONT BE ALONE AND THEY CAN BE LIKE MY GUARDIAN ANGELS OF ART AND BEAUTIFUL Like its  A  MIRACLE their all alive at the same time as me and i foudn them now l;ike WOW WOWOWOWOWOW and especially YAKUMAN mANGLO the painter IS MY FAVORITE EVER PAINTER AND I WANT TO PAINT JSUT LIKE HER AND IT MAKES ME HAPPY:::::::)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) HANDS UP WHOOO WANTS SONME PIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

SORRY IM My SELF.

 Ughhhhhhh do i even bave any right to complain????because..well…I AM REALLY CKING WEIRD OK. BUT why does everyone twll you when yur a lil kid..

“you should ALWAYS be yoyrself!!!!!” 

…So! i start expressing my beautiful brain!!! Makin art!!! Bein coo!!!! AND NOW ITS 

“theres something wrong with you…”

IS THERE? IS THERE?? IS THERE????? OR IS THERE SOMETHING WRING WITH YOUUUUU!!???????!!!????;?(?(?(?((??Being FAKE. FAKE. FAKE. FAKE. EVERYONE. is FAKE. nice up in my face and i leave and everhone whisper SHES A FUCKUNG FREAK.  OK TELL ME BITCH.   im on the toilet rugh now and i cant even REMEMBER if i pooped aready or not!???! HELP!!!!!!! BRITNEY SPEARS BLASTJNG IN THE NEXT ROOM, BLESSUNG THOSE EARSSSS 💚💚💚💚my retardness is killing me💚and iiii 💚 I MUST CONFESS, i still believeeee, (STILL BELIEVE) In jesus christTTTT im gonan loose my mind, GIVE ME A SIGN, JESUS,   HELP ME BABY ONE MORE TIMEzzzzzzzHELP ME !!!!! Serwiously jesus Ive been reallysad lately. i dont knoe ehats real. its really easy for me to dissociate andthink This isnt real. So.  

HOw to make BIG BANK when your STOOPID.!!!

So lately me and my mans been doing uber deliveries, but sometimes they just dont tip enough moneys andnit makes me wanna go back to my old ways,, Like poppin my bagina open for a cheeseburger, So i put in the note message, HEY, WANNA SUBSCWIBE TO MY OWNLY FANS???? THERES FOOOOOTTTT AND BURGER!!!! and then they hungry asses jump over to my site as well and make DOUBLE BANK! as opposed to if we just delivered sanwuch! But now theres DOUBLE FUN! DOUBLE MEAT FLAPS!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So with the new app, UBER UOOCHIE you can uber SOME GUSHY TO YOUR DOORSTEP IN ONE TAP OF A FUCKING THUMBMBMBMBMBMB and your life will IMPROVE so your fatass doesnt have to get up and walk to he nearest streer corner or sunoco EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAAAAAAAAAAAA’nbbbnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heres my song!!!!!!

 Song about life!!!!!!nobody was there for you when you were smallllllyou gotta eat your own shit to get any damn attention at alllllll deprive yourself of food and water you dont need shit like love and shelter  growing up faster faster faster fasterr!!!! you don’t deserve a thing dad said it himself so dont ya get greedy dont you ask for help!!!!!!! nothings wrong with you you made it up ,,,no one ever hurt you your seeing stuff!!!,,,everyone loves you its fine shut up ,people have it worse so suck it up!!!!it was just a dream! it was all a dream! you didnt see a thing cuz it was just a dream!!!!!!! it’s completely normal to hate your own guts so much so much so muchhhhhhhhso much that one day in 4th grade you stole a pair of scissors and a rusty old blade you started cutting yourself under the school desk they called your mom cuz you made a big mess Hahaha isnt this normalllllll????? its so normalllllllland dont you dare ever stop doing it!!! you cant get better!!!!!!!!!!!! their gonna stop caring! their gonna look away no more staring! you cant get better or your gonna be better and everyone will forget that you were the one who suffered ! dont let the scab healyou gotta make more scabs to peel! its fun!!! keep peeling! dont stop sawing away at those arms!!! dont stop!!!!!!!!!! Even though it never made them care!!!! DONT STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!! So now in 7th grade you logged onto tumblr you seen a skinny bitch and it made you wonder……….Is this gonna be the answer the answer to it alllllllll!!!!!!!!!!! everyones gonna love me AFTER ALLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY THEYLL LOVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!! IF IM SKINNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (((i love you eugenia cooneyyyy!!!!)))laa!!! Dont stop!!!!!! Dont you stop starving!!!!! If you get better its all for nothing!!!!!!!!!!! ITS ALL FOR NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you didnt lose enough WHY CANT YOU BE GOOD AT SOMETHING????????????? YOU DIDNT GO DEEP ENOUGH WHY CANT YOU BE GOOD AT SOMETHING???? ????????????????????And they still dont careeeeee their never gonna careeeeeeeee …. even if you drench your self in lighter fluid and bang your head on a chairrrrrrr Even if you run away with an older man and do a lota meth and dextromorphan nobodys gonna careeeeeeeeeee dont stop there!!!!!!!!!!!! Sell yourself online for a couple of bucks and abunch of other shit that you wish you never done You can never take it back you can never do enough  Why am i here its like im NOT REALLLLLLNOTHING IS REALLLLLLLL😊😊😊😊😊 WHY DIDNT YOU NOTICE THAT SOONER??????????????????? YOUR NOT REAL:)))))))) NOTHING IS REAL!!!!!!!!:))))) SO KEEP SAWING AWAY AT YOUR LIMBS KEEP STARVING YOUR NEVER GONNA BE THIN  KEEP POSTING YOUR DEFORMED SACK OF FLESH FILL IT WITH HEROIN NEXT TIME AND FUCK A MILLION MEN YOUR NEVER GONNA BE REAL:) AND SINCE UR NOT REAL YOU CAN GO EVEN DEEPER YOU CAN STARVE EVEN LONGER YOU CAN DO MORE MORE MORENEVER GIVE UP DONT STOP DONT STOP NOW DONT STOPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)))

being a starseed sucks..

 WHYYHYYYY was i pput on dis stoopid ass earth to fix all dere STOUPID PROB;LMEZ i dont wanna be the n=BALANCE MIDDLE ANYMORE ever since im born my only purpose is to Be thrown into shitdddy siutation so i can fix it and im DONE im TIRED i cant FIX IT IM JUST A LITTLE DUMNB ASS RETARXESD GIRL I CANTG FIX YOU HELP YOU NO NO NOOOO I CANNNNTTTTNTNTNTNTNTN PEOPLESSSSSZZZSAWSASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!my last now"boyfrined" ghas left mee,welll, u kno i kinda left him, what had to be done.... and now i am aklll alone.... but its for the best... We had an AGREENMENT,,, that he would CHANGE.. no drugs,alchcol, talking me into doing the drugs or alachol, tal;king me into doing the things i dont wanna do, _(cuz he has the big habiut of donig so.. after i sasy NO.) andf... IT JUS DIDNT HAPPEN. HES DOIN BENADRYL. TAKING BENADRYL. "it just to help me sleeeeepppppppppp" sooooooooooo you chugged the whple bottle and then........ he let me use hsi p-hone for google one day and i see he HAS PORN OPEN ON THERE....... SUM VUIDEOOOO called "DIRTTY BITCH SUCKS MY DICK IN THE FOREST" 

UHH okk... so......... Bendaryl APPARENTLY Makes yuiu super DRY and SCARED ansd weird not wanna have sex and everythings alienn like and he exlplains "Watchingh porn is the only thing that would mske me feel ebtter when i used to do benadrykl befoere.."     Meanwhile whie he was doing this IBN HIS CAR OUTSIDE OF MY HOUSE... ((hw has been living in hes car outsuide my house)) ABND I SAY LIKE WHY DIDBNT YOU COME WAKE ME UP AND TALK TO ME AND NOT WATCH PORN I DONT UNERSTAND I DONT GFET IT I DONT GET IT I DONT UNDERSTANDNDNDNDNDNDNDNDNNDBND

AND its not jsut THIS situatiioon... so many situatiioons i cant get oiverr,.. l;ike in north carolina on the drug bender.... When his 17 ytear old frined was over at our house,.. and he whips hiz cock out in front of him and starts pulling at  my clotyhjes and saying Come onnnnnnnnn letszz do itttttttt im sure he wouldnt mind to watchhhhhh its fineeeeeeeeee and i kept sayin g NOOOOO I DONT WANT TO I ALREADY SAUID NO I DONT WANT TO HES GONNA HAVE TO LEAVEEEE so instead of makuibng the kid leave he BARACADES THE DOOR ((meth induced psychosuis he was saying this kids gonna murder us so keep nhim in the living room and we stay in the bedroom...))))     AND KEEPS PRESSURING ME TO HAVE SEX WITH THIS KID STILL OUTSIDE THE DOOR....... AND I FINALLY GAVE IN CUZ I WAS SO FUCKED UP I WAS SCARED  TOO AND DID NOT WANNA ARGUE ANYNMORE............... this night reallt traumatize me and ui have luiterally NIGHMARES about it and when i told him how it fucked me up hes like "well i didnt knwo it made you  uncomfrtble ypu need to speak up and tell me" 

AND THATS THE SAME THOING HE SAID WHEN I WAS UP[SET OVER TYHE MADI SITUATION....... "YOU NEED TO SPEAK UP""""" 

I DID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU DONT LISTEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO WONDER I DONT HAVE FREAKING BOUNARUIES XCUZ NO ONE LISTENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and the whole thing with MADI, is he knew she was l;esbian for me and wpouild talk sexual about me behind my back and he sent her a nude picture of me and they were talking abpout ""sharing me"" in a 3way relationship and thsi whole time i knew there was SOMETHING going on just from uintuition so i was  like........ why are you insinuatibng all the time that you want a 3way with madi?? and he would make me feel INSANE and say "i dont know what that is whats tat mean yopur being delsuonal"   and i was literlly SOBBINMG to him BEGGING him to not have any one else in opur relationship i clearly sat boundaries he just UFGNORED THEM   AGAIN./ ]

So... i decided after all THAT.... to give him another chance.... i thought.. since we "talked about it..'''' and "now i know not to do that again cuz it made you uncomfortbale" hes never gonna do it again........] now we get to this past weekend........ my mom trusts me and him to watch the hopuse for her while she goes to west vriginia... and i have a sinyus infexction, hes liek, "i know your trying to quit DELSYUM, cuz its ruining relationshjip with your family after i concinvced you to do uit after you said no OVER AND OVER, but,,,, since your sickkkkk, this si your fibnal chance to get fucked up, come onnnn, we can share one bottle,,,, just once,,,,"""" and i sayyy...... okay................... \and then my MOM FINDS OUT,....... MAKES ME LOOK FUCKING RETARDED.....I FEEKL SO NGUILTY.... 

and thats what led up nto em breakingup with him cuz i relized all this... he jsur cant hurt me in these ways and just move on... i cant move on...... andf becuse i cant move on,,, im the crazy person,!! "your giving up on this relationship, i already talked it out with you over and over you just dont wanna choose to forgiuve me cuz you necver wnated to be with me in the first place" 

I DID!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT I CANT EVER LOOK AT YOU THE SAME WAY AFTER YOU DID THESE THINMGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM  DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i gues im writing all this as a way to lay it out in front of me and convince myse,lf what actually hapened cuz everyone always gaslight me and i dont even know whats actually real or what they say i "made up"...... so yea..... THUS IS WGHAT HAPPENED.